Isilith wrote:One thing that really bothered me about her character was her lack of inner consistency. By the writ, suicide is a mortal sin ( sort of like it is in Catholicism )... yet when her brother killed himself, murdered her cousin ( that she was raised with as a brother ), as well as all the rest that she didn't even try to condemn it, it didn't horrify her as it should have.
Did she stick to the teachings of the "faith" that was supposedly so important to her? That was the reason for her treason? Nope, she was like "Ok god, forgive him for breaking all your laws because he thought it was ok... in fact god, I am going to carry on his work".
That sort of hypocrisy just drives me bat-shit crazy, because that kind of thinking allows you to rationalize ANY action and allow ANY level of atrocity.
At a guess, the sort of suicide that the Writ condemns is the "screw this, I'm outta here" sort, rather than the guy jumping on the live grenade to save his buddies, or going on some other vital mission the planning for which doesn't leave much room for survivors. It's a distinction that a lot of people today would make, to the point that they'd refuse to categorize the grenade-coverer as suicidal at all. (Consider Operation Ark's covering fleet, whose role was to be discovered and killed to decoy the disappearance of the fleet. They're not likely to be condemned for suicide by most people at all inclined to condemn suicide.)
Mind you, there's certainly room for hypocrisy and irresponsible rationalization when it comes to sorting an action into one or the other of those categories.
But anyway, if I recall correctly - I haven't looked back at the text for the occasion - Sahlavahn wasn't eager to die to be gone, he just didn't have a way to live and remain outside of custody (where he might be made to reveal things that would compromise his mission) consistent with getting what he needed to do done.
Don't read this as much defense of him, please. When you've betrayed your country, when your mission has you having to kill a lot of unsuspecting people who trust you personally, when you've diverted lots of gunpowder to people to do very explosive things to unsuspecting noncombatants (specifically: everyone in the large blast radius), it's long past time to reconsider if you're doing the right thing. And Sahlavahn was killing his friends and helping terrorists for Zhaspyr Clyntahn; if Mother Church was speaking through
that mouth,
anyone should be ready to wash the Temple's mouth out with soap.
I just think that the suicide charge (again, if my recollection is sound - I can certainly be off), or his sister not leveling it at him, isn't a solid hit on either of them. It's not out of the blue, but the wiggle room there is the same sort of wiggle room that would be used in a whole lot of situations by a whole lot of people, who would not ordinarily by judged to have lousy moral judgment on that basis.